“This can’t be it!
I think I’m dropped on the wrong planet.”

I remember that as one of my first conscious thoughts: This can’t be the real life. Either I am getting something profoundly wrong or the world around me is.

I grew up in in a small village in northern Germany. I was a kid of nature, playing outside all the time. I would brew plant soups, riding my horse aka my bike…Travelling different realities outside or in books was all I was doing.

Until I started to get overwhelmed a lot.
Moods swings, emotional breakdowns and out of body experiences became a thing.
I was often either super hyper, would burst out in anger or cry in despair because I felt so misunderstood. Or simply wrong with everything that was going on inside of me.

Seven years ago my system shut down. I had all kind of physical symptoms, health issues, psychological issues. It built up until I wouldn’t leave my house anymore and would concider if it’s worth staying on this planet.
During all of that this subtle feeling never went away: there must be more. There must be “an answer” to all of this.

I started meditation, yoga, breathwork, therapy, did gaga movement, ecstatic dance, started studying psychology at Freie Universität Berlin, started training as a therapist at the TIB-Gestalt Berlin, did Grinberg, massages, medium sessions, energy healing, and study spiritual teachings.